The day that Lindie was born I was in so much shock that I honestly can't remember much. I do remember being incredibly sad and incredibly overwhelmed and (unfortunately) ashamed. I questioned the Lord's intentions with it all. I can remember that day asking Chris to pray that it wouldn't be true- that she wouldn't actually have Down syndrome and that the doctors would be wrong. I remember Chris's hesitance in my prayer request, but he prayed for Lindie and for me and him and our family and our future right there next to me in the hospital bed with all the tears.
Throughout the day I remember hearing bits and pieces of this song playing in my head. And now I know why. It's like Lauren Daigle put the words of my heart and cries to the Lord in a song written just for me.
After the initial shock of it all, I fell in love with my little girl. Although we would never choose this path for her or us, we trust that the Lord has plans in it all. And even though he didn't change her diagnosis as I initially prayed, he has changed my heart and blessed me with a husband who's heart didn't need to be changed from the beginning.
Now we just need to get this girl home. 💗🌿😍
Lindie continues to do well in the NICU. She's gone from only 5 mL of breastmilk Monday to 20 mL today. The goal is around 45 mL. So, slowly but surely. She's gaining weight. Her cheeks are filling up, and she's making the sweetest little baby coos you could ask for. We just love her. 💗