Theme 2: Contentment

"I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength."
Philippians 4:12-13

I spent the first month and a half in Honduras full of discontent. I was glad to be here, but a lot of me was holding back from really allowing myself to fully be here and be content. I was missing people. I was missing home. I didn't feel like I was myself. I was stuck in a box, when the whole time the real me was struggling to break free.

One morning I was sitting on my front porch with my coffee, journal and devotional having my usual coffee date with God, when I realized the pain my discontentment was causing my Father in Heaven. I was talking to him, telling him the things I felt blessed to have and be apart of. I was thankful to have the mornings with him, to be living here, to be healthy, to have the strength to pursue my dreams when it is hard, and to be His daughter. I told Him, everything would be just great, if only Chris were here. After I spoke the words, I realize the sting it caused to Him.

Here I was in this place He called me. He provided the time. He provided the money. He provided the home. He provided for my job, the families I work with, and the church I am a part of. He provided all these things, and yet I still tell him that I am unsatisfied. I felt like a child who was disappointed that her parents didn't bring her the sprinkles when they had bought her coffee, ice cream, and cake. (Well, maybe not the coffee for most kids).

Needless to say, this day I saw my selfishness. It saddened me to think that my discontent had been saddening my Father. Immediately I thought of a verse that I remembered reading where Paul talks about contentment, but I couldn't remember where to find it. I asked a couple people that day if they knew the reference but wasn't able to locate it. All day I was thinking about this, asking God to give me a heart of contentment in all situations.

The next morning I opened a card that was dated Oct. 11th from my roommate Melissa. The first thing she wrote in the card was this "I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:12-13

I was so encouraged! It was perfect the way that God had prepared this challenge for me, and He knew exactly when I would need encouragement from this verse. Through this God has challenged me to be content. In any situation- to be content. He knows my plans; he knows what lies in my future, and he will provide for all of this. I want to honor him and show Him that I trust him with my life by being content. I want to be thankful and grateful for every situation he has me in, whether in need or in plenty, whether well fed or hungry, whether in Honduras or Missouri, whether with my fiance or without, whether happy or sad, I will choose to be content in all situations.

Now I feel content and happy. Although, I think this is a daily battle that I have to fight. It is interesting because I think I will have to do this all over again when I return home, missing Honduras, missing the people of Honduras, and still... missing Chris.

1 comment:

cha said...

Hey Aimee!

I am glad that God provided that verse for you and even more excited that you have such a soft heart that the Holy Spirit has the ability to reveal things like that to you. You are constantly growing and it is very obvious. I pray that your remaining time there will be FILLED with joy and contentment. God is giving you one last chance to serve Him with utmost devotion with NO DISTRACTION before you marry the man of your dreams. Take advantage of it! Have a great time there and hope to see you soon after you get back! Romans 8:28

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